The end-of-the-month catch-up-with-me post.

Last night, I had an epiphany of sorts. It was like the time I discovered that many of the people who I lived with, studied with, hung around with 24x7 had very different fundamentalist/homophobic/communal tendencies from what I had come to expect. This time it was about prejudices and biases. As I've been feeling lately that writing my true feelings on this blog is only getting me into more trouble than the unburdening is worth, suffice to say - the scales fell from my eyes.
When I look at my friends, I would like to say, I choose them.. that I choose not to hang out with those people I dont hang out with because I am not comfortable with them and that therefore the people I hang out with are the ones I am most comfortable with. It is true, in a way. And in Manipal, for the first time in my life, I'd thought I'd fallen in with a like-minded set. But I think I judged too soon. Its not so much like-minded, as from similar backgrounds.. At the superficial level, our ideas, values and thoughts seem almost the same.. Dig a little deeper and the differences seem to widen into craters of dissonance.

Anyway the freaky part is, I slept last night with a resolution to make new friends and not depend so much on my existing ones - that way I'll have my own space. Now, I've subscribed to this free sms service which gives news/goodmorning msgs/bible quotes(to silence my guilty conscious when it raises its head)/horoscopes.
And Leo's horoscope says : 'New friends in life may be fun but not steady. Take them as they come and let them go when they want.'

Talk about divine intervention!! And also, a dear cousin calls up, reminding there's always family. :) So i'm slightly relieved that its not like my entire support system just crashed.
In other news, I've officially started sketching. Here's my first major project - all completed and looking incredibly nice.

Edit: I deleted part of this post because I thought it was unclear and dont think I can put it differently. So.

The lack of me.

I've not been writing.. Because I've been writing a lot in my journal. I think I've had enough of the thrill of putting all your thoughts out there for everyone to read. I've also been sketching a lot. I've been doing many creative things. I got voted the Cultural Sec of the college.. So I've also been busy a lot. I cant blog anymore. I think. What to do? I dont want to delete this. It means so much to me. And I cant see it dying without any sort of activity. Anyhow. I've things to do. And miles to go. (in an un-Frost way)
so.
ciao.