This is a rant. And I know I have too many posts titled like that. But what the hell. Its my blog.

So its reached a stage where I feel old old old a month before I turn 21.
I really need to get a life.

Anyway while I'm on this rant I might as well just get on with it.
Well a couple of days back I went to this boarding school (ya, I know - I bring it on myself!) and I suddenly wished I had done a lot more when I was in school. Learnt an instrument. Learnt to swim. Learnt to ride a horse. Blah blah.


And then yesterday, I am clicking through some Facebook albums.. and I come across this really really hot guy. And. he turns out to be on my friend's list. And I am thinking.. 'who the hell is this guy? I thought I'd already hit on every decent looking guy on my list.' And then.

He turns out to be a junior in school. About 3 years junior. Now I know, its not a big deal. But come on. He's a kid!! Just turning 18. And when he was in 4th std, he's seen me in clothes (and a phase) I'd rather not have a prospective boyfriend even know about! But he's hot. And out of the question.

Then I reflected on the number of guys I stop myself form crushing on(and rarely succeed, by the way) just because they were younger. I really think guys have it easier. They can hit on younger and older chicks. While with most girls its ok to look but not touch or anything else if the guy is more than two years younger. I know there's no hard and fast rule. AND I KNOW Tendulkar is married to a woman 5 years older. But it still doesnt change that unwritten rule that girls have. Its a girl thing.

I miss Manipal.
And I am old.
Sigh.