Lessons learnt... 2005

This post was to be published on 3.1.06 but there was some problem with republishing...

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And just like that, Christmas and new year's day has passed by. Every year, i go through this phase of making un-keepable resolutions. Its a waste of time and effort because i know for sure that they are not going to be kept. Some of my more repetitive resolutions have been to lose weight in a month, stay way from cheese and oil and butter and all fattening things, writing a diary continuously, try to curb my reading habit to an acceptable limit, and so on... but the problem with all of the resolutions i make is that i always add a 'try'. which gives me a loophole when i judge myself... 'well, i did try...', i think to my guilty self- which instantly makes me feel better.
this new year has started with me listing out a whole new set of priorities because my old ones have become, as they say in the wide world, anulled.
I don't want to lose weight- i think i'm thin enough.
Therefore i don't want to stay away from fatty food- a relief to my always hungry, suffering-from-hostel-food stomach.
I am maintaining a blog-an online equivalent of a diary or the closest i can get to it.
My reading habit is not something i ever had a problem with- it was always other people who tried to convince me that i was reading too much, and the guilty puss that i am, i always fall for their admonitions. This time there was no such coercive person...

My new list of priorities has evolved from a totally new situation.
This year i want to make as many friends as possible.
Get into contact with my old ones.
Party a lot(this term is a very subjective one. considering I haven't partied much, it just means more than last year anyway) - mainly booze- i am NOT the dance-till-you-drop kinds.
Convince my dad to let me become me. its complicated. i guess i want him to 'let me go'. its gonna be a tough job - he's holding onto me as fast as a jellyfish and it stings just as much.
Earn some(any amount) of money.
And so on.

College, this last year has been an eye opener.
I've realised you can slog and slog in a group project and still not be credited until you actually go and pull the credit from the pseudo-namesake.
That cut-copy-paste doesn't work with all teachers.
That there are cold-blooded teachers who will actually give 2/25 for an average assignment just because it was submitted late.
Hail Pinty !!!
That all those late entries eventually build up into a humongous, crucial piece of missing attendence.
That exams can be written and passed without much studying if you know how to blabber.
That photography is subjective and too much of looking thru a camera lens can leave you always 'framing a composition' of whatever you see.
That a slap might become a termination.
That a class can become a union.
That culturals will become politics.
That becoming the editor is easy and lovely but actually running behind people for articles is a tiresome job.

Also, other than college;
That too many concerned, well-meaning friends -> too much advice -> confusion of the first order.
That promises are made to be broken.
That 'men are bastards' (no offence to those rare non-bastard men out there)
That you can be the best of friends and still not completely like each other.
That a harsh word can hang like a sharp knife between two good friends. And that the bitter taste of losing a good friend will never go away.
That you often get what you give.
That it takes a lot for me to get drunk.
That a poem cannot be forcibly written.
That a heartfelt letter will be laughed at by one insensitive jerk or another.
That fear of the future is not a good enough motivation to plan ahead.

I think thats enough - some of 2005's lessons to me.
The most important of them being -

"DON'T EVER TRUST A GUY WHO SEEMS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE."

Although my friend, Nina, might want to correct me and say "don't ever trust a guy. period." :)

Anyway...
enough for now. tired of all the remembering...
Ciao.

And to all my friends and everybody else.. Please feel free to post your comments...