prayers and future plans

hmm... i just read nina's blog.
well...

this is what she’d written on the last line of her latest post...

'prayer...prayer...is it a futile thing we developed to make us feel better or does it actually work?'

I wonder... i really wonder...
I don't profess to be a very religious person, and i don't think i need to be, but i do remember praying as far as my un-trustable memory goes back. And reading the bible. I think everyone prays all the time. All those times when we think – ‘please please let it happen.’

For me, though I don go to church, I cannot think of a single day at least in the recent past, when I haven’t asked somebody up there to help me out.

And to those interested, the reason why I don’t go to church is because, I don’t believe that it makes any sense to revere a place so much as to believe that you can reach god only from there. Besides no regular church goer, has ever given me an explanation which has satisfied me. My mother just stops short of an argument every time we start talking about religion and her avid beliefs. And that is so irritating. Considering that I love to argue…

Okay. Enough of that.

So what have I been up to? I have been hanging out with friends almost every day and it’s a great wonder to them how I still find each day a drag.

Am at home, now, obviously because I am blogging. My grandmom had a fall some time back. She’s in the hosp, right now. She fractured her hip bone and she needs to have an operation. I think its going to be today. They keep changing the time and so I don’t know if it will be held today after all. I am freaked and that’s why I am blogging and reading blogs and trying to stay out of everyone’s way. They’ve all left to the hospital. I couldn’t go because I have a cold and chances of infection, etc.. it’s a good thing I didn’t go, though, I don’t do well in hospital situations and can’t handle them at all. I would have just been tripping over myself and looking harried and feeling extremely tensed and making everyone else tense too. worried though. Please pray…

Ok… read another blog just now. (I love mozzilla firefox, its been so long since it was first installed but I still marvel at the new tab option. Cos I just can’t stand having too many windows open at the same time and yet want to open so many sites at the same time)

Clicked the next blog option on the window… cool blog. Here it is...
Check it out. Posted a comment. Very unlike me. but still chumma…

Typed in all the articles I could for the eng journal. Tough tough job, being an editor. And yet I don’t know… I think I kinda like it.

Checked out hi5. again. Its so boring. I won’t elaborate on it.

Talked to my dad, the day before yesterday. Long serious talk. In the hospital canteen. About my plans for the future. (groan) I don’t know. I said maybe MSc Viscom in Loyola. The truth is I think I’m kind of losing interest in journalism. Still love writing but reporting for a paper - I don’t know. But I definitely want to stay within the media framework. Mostly will take up advertising. Talked to my dad about going abroad. He said fine, as long as I want to go to study and not just for the sake of going abroad. Well. He told me to atart looking for places, if I was serious. And NID – he wasn’t very happy about that. Said it was too specific. He’s not at all happy about me changing lines, on the whole. But he knows I will do what I want to. So I think he kind of just gave up arguing as hopeless. That is not to say he wasn’t interested, he was. He kept lecturing me (what’s new?) but it was all what I needed to hear, so it was ok.

Haven’t had a thing to eat. My stomach is grumbling. Going to retire to sit in front of the tv and have some hopefully still hot dosa. Considering everyone left a long time ago, I would say that that hope is bound to be empty.

Oh hey… Empty Hope… that sounds good… maybe I’ll write a poem...lol..

See ya
Ciao.