A few things to say to myself.

(This is a rant.)
Why is it so hard to realize when you're depressed? When you sit at home watching movies even before they get downloaded completely, bunking classes, not even motivated to submit assignments on time, not talking to anyone about the things that're really bothering you, and when the restaurant phone-answerer knows your order and your voice, its high time to do something about it.
Why did you get involved in a play when you've forgotten how to act, love directing more and have the worst case of stage fear ever?
What made you think you were worthy of any attention ever from anyone?!?!?
Really! What were you thinking? How do you like to feel humiliated, rejected and like such a total failure as well as a loser of the first order? Serves you right. Never get your feelings into the picture. Ever. Havent you learnt your lesson?
Change your number. Dont call him. Dont pick up his calls. Dont fool yourself into thinking you dont know his number. You may not know the exact digits, but you know when its him.
Why don't you go get drunk? It might help. Its the beginning of the month. The 'I'm broke' excuse doesnt hold good, anymore.
Buy the god-forsaken charger, already!! Enough of begging from other people!!
What made you think you were worthy of any attention ever from anyone?!?!? And even if you were, a fling is not the solution. To anything.

Get Over It.
NOW.