And so it ends.. 2008

I've never been a fan of the holidays. There's definitely something to be said for bonding with family during the 'jolly' season. But in spite of that, I always feel like I need to be on my guard because it seems to be good to be true. I love my friends, alrite..? But family - is so different altogether. I dont have older siblings or any who are close to my age and state of mind.. So its always a pleasure to be or talk with cousins who are somewhat close to my age.

But staying with family means - no partying (this is uncle0aunty type family - not just cool cousins) so thats that.

In spite of all the happiness I am feeling.. my internship serves to bum me out. Hope this is just a phase. :(

Happy New Year all!

Seeing green

I give up. I dont know how to deal with you anymore.. Or how to deal with them.
I dont know how to deal with all these feelings you cause - jealousy is the worst! Iam not a jealous person never have been - but suddenly I want to catch that 'cute' ponytail and rip it off her scalp. And this is the least of what I have been daydreaming about. My violence scares me.


I know this post is cryptic. But there are some people who I need to say these things to. But I'm too much of a coward to tell them directly. Besides they read my blog. So.