Appa, I care too!

My course in Manipal is coming to an end - a couple of weeks left. But I cant stand to be here anymore. I need to get away from this place. Towards home and family. I havent been to Cochin in four or five months, as for Chennai - its almost been a year. I miss my people!!

There are many crises at home. A cousin's in hospital, my mum's not at the pinkest of her health and on the other side, a cousin's getting hitched soon and has turned into bridezilla (I'm just glad I'm nowhere near her!) and my dad..

Appa has always been the out-of-sight-out-of-mind type. Even when it came to me.. I was never bothered by it before.. I know he loves me but just has a very different way of showing it. When I was studying in Chennai, he would hardly call me once a week.. but then it was ok.. I am a very independent person and just knowing he was there was enough for me. I have never thought of myself as very close to my faher, I connect more with my mum. But then in the past couple of months, my dad has been in touch with me at least once a week. This is a little scary. Of course the simple explanation is that he missed me and has decided to call me more often. But when is life, or truth, for that matter, simple? I think he's going through some sort of a mid-life crisis.. and I want to be there for him.. But this damn course is just so hectic right now!

I read this. And feelings came off. I dont know what to say. I miss my appa too. Very very much. And I think I should do something about it.